Why can't I see things differently? Maybe then, I'll be able to understand myself. I don't even know where I'll be in an hour, or what I'll be in a year. My dad said I should get a job and work in the muggle world. That would help a bit, actually. He said you don't have to study to work some interesting places. I've never been that good in magic, anyway. What can it bring me out of life? Mum's not so proud, but she said that if that's my choice, we're going to live at dad's old place in Ireland. I think I'm excited about that. Maybe. Well, I could be.